My plan had been to finish up the degree in the next few months, search for an industrial lab job (while I wait for Mr. PhizzleDizzle to finish his degree), and then spend a couple years in industry before trying my hand at academia, with both of us going on the market together.
However, with the job market currently in the shithole, I put out some feelers for a few academic jobs, and now I'm kinda scared. Am I really ready to do something like that? Would they even want me? My pub record is only eh, though I think it's going to be shored up as I finish up. It's so scary to put myself out there. I waver between thinking that I totally suck and they are going to laugh at my interest to thinking, damn, I am hot shit and they're going to snap me up like I'm free cotton candy.
I can't decide which I am. My self-evaluation skills are severely bipolar schizophrenic.
1 year ago