It's frustrating. The first occurred two days after my FIL's surgery, so I didn't really prepare very well for it. And it was something I knew I would have to prepare for...Company 1 (Master's Degree Dude Interviewer) doesn't really give a rat's ass about the fact that I'll have a PhD and wants to make sure I have more "boots on the ground" type skills. This was not going to be a "job talk-y" type interview.
Well, I fucked that one up, pretty bad. I was shaking while speaking on the phone, and I had lost my headset so one hand was wasted holding the phone instead of putting a pen to paper to think/write. It was bad. My hands shook, my stomach shook, and my mind was basically totally discombobulated. And it showed. I think I came off a bit like an imbecile. Oh well. I scheduled that one first to really get practice anyway, it's been a long time since I've done any interviews. I wasn't that bummed because it wasn't really the job I wanted (though I would have taken it if it were my only choice), but it still sucks to be rejected and know you didn't do well at something.
The 2nd one was better (Lady PhD Interviewer). But not a slam dunk. I don't know what that means. I haven't heard back from them yet. I don't know. I just don't know. I really suspect I'll be rejected here too, just because I do. Can't help it. The uncertainty is killing me, because I think this is the job I really want (given the economy). A year ago, I don't think I'd have considered this place but since the economy has gone down the shithole I don't really have many choices and this is definitely the best one, in several ways. So....I'd really really like to get through to the next round of interviewing. Man. I'm dying. Please please let this work out.
So I've mentioned that I feel blah, and my lovely readers have been so kind and suggested a break. I'm pleased to announce that Mr. PhizzleDizzle and I have booked a trip to the Land of Eire. I've gotten some great tips from Lab Pixie on how best to take advantage of this trip, and we are going to have a great time. This will probably be the last spontaneous couples trip we'll take for a long time, as I'll (hopefully!!!) be working by the end of this year. I am really, really looking forward to it and am using the planning of the trip as an excellent procrastination tool and a way to forget about my job worries.