worst...apology...ever

From Bishop Williamson, via Reuters:

I can truthfully say that I regret having made such remarks, and that if I had known beforehand the full harm and hurt to which they would give rise, especially to the Church, but also to survivors and relatives of victims of injustice under the Third Reich, I would not have made them," Williamson said, according to the website of Zenit, a Catholic news agency.

He's sorry he hurt the Church, first and foremost?  That is not an apology.  What a scumbag.  Reason # 53728341937439183473819 why I could never join the Catholic Church.  Besides the fact that I don't believe Jesus is my savior, of course.

Everything went well

The surgery went way better than anyone (including the docs) expected.  We are so thankful.

Thanks for all your support.  Regular posting, reading, and commenting will resume soon!  I miss you guys!

Lots going on

Writing, working, preparing for phone interviews, and dear FIL going for serious scary surgery this week.  With the in-law family, won't be posting a lot this week.  I'm scared.  Cancer sucks.  More than Sean Hannity.

Please keep him in your thoughts.  Thanks.

Sean Hannity Sucks

I basically want to kick him in the nuts.  Repeatedly.

For now, that is all.

Geeks are a different breed of people

Chat conversation with my friend:

him:  hi

me:  hi hi

him: hi hi hi

me: hi hi hi hi hi

me: that's right, i just went fibonacci on you.

him: hahahahahahahahah

TWO Phone interviews and Genderific Reactions

Well, I have TWO phone interviews at TWO different places that are not natural fits but could be exciting to move to, as I've mentioned before.  This is EXCITING!!!!!  Go me!!!!

One interview will be performed by a guy.  I did some Google Kung Fu and found that he has a Master's degree, but no PhD.  As I've discussed before on this blog, I am able to find ways to put myself down in the most ridiculous ways possible.  In this case, I am worried that I won't know something as well as he does (and seriously, who could blame me, I'm DEEP but not necessarily BROAD), and he will be like, "How can this chick have a PhizzleDizzle?  She doesn't know anything."  Somehow, I put more pressure on myself to super perform because I will be interviewed by someone with an MS.  Is that not insane?

The other interview will be performed by a female PhD.  At first I thought, "Oh, nice, a woman."  But then I thought, "Oh shit, a woman."  Because sometimes women can be so hard on other women, particularly in fields where there aren't a lot of women.  Maybe she will think I will make women like her look bad if I say something stupid.  I don't know.  I've experienced this sort of woman-on-woman treatment before, and even been a perpetrator myself at times (to my chagrin).  Maybe she will be a hard-ass.  Maybe she will hold me to a super-high standard because she thinks in order to succeed as a woman in my field, you have to kick way more ass than a dude.  

Maybe, maybe, maybe.  Basically, I am thinking of ways to make myself nervous.  And it alarms me that I had a negative gender response in this case.  Actually, I had a positive, and a negative response, in rapid succession.  I don't know.  

Just tell me to stop overthinking and wish me luck.  

Year of the Ox Progress: Weeks 2/3

I realized I didn't update last week, so I guess this week will be a two-fer.

1) Write Thesis by June 1: I'm pretty behind on Chp. 2, but I've written 816 words so far.  I have some citations to collect as well, but the progress has been slow, but at least no totally 0.

2) Run 10 miles/week: I might have to change this to doing regular exercise.  I'm not feeling the running.  In week 2, I went for a swim, and swam 1000 yds.  I know this is peanuts to Eugenie, but I am reasonably proud of the fact that I could just hop into the pool after forever and just knock out 1K.  In week 2, I also tried a yoga class, which I liked, and repeated in week 3.  I am totally sore from yoga.  I'm going to be jacked!

3) 30 pushups continuously: My yoga class does a crapton of high planks.  I think this will help with the pushups.

4) Do a pullup: Nothing here.  I should just make this one of the things I work on when I wake up in the morning.

5) Update Wardrobe to be grownup :): I haven't worn a baby tee in months.  This is a moral victory.